3 months is such a milestone - the 4th trimester is over, newborn life is gone, and we’ve got a chunky baby full of personality!
I hope everytime you look in the mirror you smile like this at yourself.
I hope you don’t poke & prod & nitpick what you see.
I hope you always see what a miracle you are.
At church today they talked about good/bad examples and my thoughts turned to you. Because I wasn’t a great example for years before you were born. I poked & prodded myself. I starved myself. I took diet pills that wrecked havoc on my body. Loathing my body, wishing I looked totally different...consumed my thoughts. None of my accomplishments had any meaning bc I still didn’t look the way I wanted.
I want a different life for you. I want you to walk through life fearlessly & boldly. I am working everyday to cast off my bad thinking patterns and develop my own self love & acceptance, so I can set the best example for you.
So instead of deleting this picture bc of my double chin, round torso, giant forearms and claw hand, I am keeping it so I can tell you someday about the fun time we had making faces in the mirror at church*
So here’s to a lifetime of mirror selfies together. Never stop smiling ❤️❤️❤️
I hope you don’t poke & prod & nitpick what you see.
I hope you always see what a miracle you are.
At church today they talked about good/bad examples and my thoughts turned to you. Because I wasn’t a great example for years before you were born. I poked & prodded myself. I starved myself. I took diet pills that wrecked havoc on my body. Loathing my body, wishing I looked totally different...consumed my thoughts. None of my accomplishments had any meaning bc I still didn’t look the way I wanted.
I want a different life for you. I want you to walk through life fearlessly & boldly. I am working everyday to cast off my bad thinking patterns and develop my own self love & acceptance, so I can set the best example for you.
So instead of deleting this picture bc of my double chin, round torso, giant forearms and claw hand, I am keeping it so I can tell you someday about the fun time we had making faces in the mirror at church*
So here’s to a lifetime of mirror selfies together. Never stop smiling ❤️❤️❤️
*after we had to run out of the chapel bc you screamed while your dad was blessing sacrament 😜
(That picture of Ollie sticking her tongue out at herself 🥰🥰🥰 Happy Sunday friends!)
(The 1 picture that made the cut for our holiday card bc Ollie wasn’t crying in it 🙃🙃🙃)
We’ve been road tripping back to Utah the last 2 days - I’m sad our holiday break is officially over but PUMPED to reset for the new year.
My favorite thing about the long drive from Oregon to Utah every January is being able to game plan the new year with Zach. Long stretches of uninterrupted time allow us to internally reflect and then talk honestly about our highs & lows of the previous year, pain points, hopes for the new year and ideas of how to make it all happen! We go over all the big areas of our life: marriage, parenting, finances/saving, spiritual, career, health and travel/fun.” - some areas have a few items, others have long lists.
We abandoned traditional “resolutions” years ago - trying to be perfect and hit some checklist everyday/week/month wasn’t working for my mental health. Instead, we choose a word or intention for the year, with most of our hopes and plans pointing us in that direction.
In 2019 the word was VIBRANT, all about movement and progression (2018 felt very beige!). While we hoped for a baby, we knew it wasn’t realistic...but then Ollie showed up and totally made 2019 a vibrant year!
In 2020 I want to focus on DISCOMFORT. That sounds bad, but I mean casting off the self-created shackles & habits that are comfy, but limit progression. Ex - lots of screen time, oversleeping, ignoring opportunities that seems scary or out of reach, not attending social functions bc of anxiety, etc. I want to be more fearless & confident this year - at work, as a wife, as a mom, online. I want to be as present as possible with Ollie, not scrolling or binging. I want to reach out to new friends, unafraid of judgement & rejection.
So cheers to a new year, new hopes, and seeing what's waiting outside our comfort zone!
