“I’ll just deal with it.” Does this sound familiar?

Last week I shared a little about my postpartum mental health and said I would share more details this week, but something important happened 2 nights ago I want to share first. (I’ll still share what I planned but probably in a few more days.) This week was an important pivot in my postpartum mental health journey.

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. I’ve talked about my suicidal ideation a little, but never felt comfortable talking about it more openly. During one of my most vulnerable & darkest moments, some “close” to me pushed me away, instead of being supportive. They told Zach to leave me and used phrases like “mentally unstable” - people I should’ve been able to lean on weaponized my weakness against me, perpetuating the stigma of mental health and suicidal ideation.